level and really lessens the stiffness and aches and pains that being middle aged curses me with.

It looks like my massage helped John, at least somewhat. He is busy in the basement today, cleaning his guns, etc.

Andy, wonderson, is home for the weekend, and I have spent lots of time talking to him about what's going on at college, etc.

I don't seem to have the empty next syndrome that so many people talk about. But, Andy and I internet messenge each other about once or twice a week, so I don't feel like he has completely dumped his parents.

I'm washing clothes now, and packing for my trip to Columbia, South Carolina. I'll be going there every week for the next 5 weeks. My life has become incredibly hectic in the past year. I never expected to be traveling all the time
and I'm not sure I really like it. In a way, it gives John his space, which he needs. I need some space too, but travelling doesn't seem to give it to me. I'd rather be spending some evenings with either the horses or throwing some pots or trying to finish some of the stained glass projects I have started. Instead, I spend my evenings kinda bored - might read a book, might watch tv, but mostly, I'm bored and alone. I miss John so very much when I am gone, and I really don't know how much longer I can go on like this.

On the other hand, I do love my job and what I do, and I feel like I am quite well paid. I so wish I could have a job that paid as well as this, and was as challenging, but didn't require me to travel nearly every frigging week. Need to get more laundry done - more tomorrow night.