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September 28, 2004

Depression

I thought I was depressed and had been depressed for a long time. It's been harder and harder for me to get my ass out of bed and to work and sweet, lovely, wonderful John has been picking up a lot of my slack around the house and at the barn, etc.

This morning, I was in a rush to get to work. I forgot to take the blood pressure pills I was on.

Oh. My. God.

For the first time in 3 years, I was not dizzy and light headed when walking from the car to the office. I did not feel like I was going to fall asleep at 1:00 this afternoon. I was in a genuinely good mood at work. I felt .. could it be .. normal?

So I looked up the 3 drugs I take and found that the side effects for 2 of them are ..... depression!!!!!

Yes, I know I need to take them, but now I can go to the doctor with data in hand and see if there aren't alternatives.

I had my blood pressure taken today and it was normal. But I know it might not be tomorrow.

I have gained a lot of weight in the past few years - it's probably a cause of the high blood pressure that I never had before in my life - but the pills that keep my pressure down also make me exhausted and depressed - with no energy to exercise. And when I say no energy, I mean the energy to put one foot in front of the other when just walking to the car some mornings.

So, the moral is - look at how you feel - check to see what side effects are likely with drugs you are taking and then - go see your doctor.

I will try to get in tomorrow - I'm too young (even if I'm 51) to feel tired and depressed all the time.

Posted by Beth at September 28, 2004 06:58 PM