April 17, 2008
My Hero: Military Moms and Dads
[Kat]
I got my copy of "My Hero: Military Kids Write About Their Moms and Dads" from St. Martin's Press. I immediately read the book.
I have to say, I am used to reading three hundred or more page tomes about war from the adult's point of view, but this was a great, refreshing and inspiring read. I have nieces and nephews who are the same ages as some of those who wrote pieces for the book. In many ways, their points of view are the same and, as they say, "out of the mouths of babes."
I found myself laughing, crying and sometimes bemused by the logic, pride, joy and sadness that these young people expressed for their parents and their service. Some focused on their parents' service and others saw their parents as they are: moms and dads who love them and who they love back. In all, you could tell that these parents should be equally proud because, they may not know it, but they have had a real and profound impact on their children. To quote George H. W. Bush, 41st President, in the forward:
This book is a wonderful way to honor these children, many of whom will likely one day wear the uniform of our Armed Forces', and their Parents. They make us proud to be Americans.
Let me quote some of my favorites:
My dad is an HMCS (Senior Chief Hospital Corpsman). Basically, everyone calls him Senior Chief Willis. He is currently and E8. (I, personally, am looking forward to a promotion of E9 so my family can obtain good parking.) He is ready to serve, anywhere, anytime. Although he does not fly around in a cape or wear his underwear outside of his pants, he does save a world - my world. - Jazzmine Willis, age 12
This one really got me. He talks about his dad in both the past and present tense. His dad taught him many things and left him with a real impression that will stay with him forever:
My dad is my hero because he was my dad. He took care of us before himself. He always played with all of us and he helped me in sports. He was busy in the Army but always made time to spend with our family. We shared a love and interest in collecting baseball cards. My dad taught me to respect people and encouraged me to do my best. My dad was also my hero because he was in the Army. He protected our country in Afghanistan. His men built a school for the children there and Dexter students sent books for them. My dad was killed in action in Afghanistan on October 31, 2006 by an IED. Now he is a war hero. - Aidon Sloan, age 11
Some get down to the important stuff:
My mom is my hero because she cooks for me so that I don't starve. She's nice to me and my friends too. She saves me because she is in the Air Force. - Hannah Dunks, age 7
The simplest explanation for "why we fight":
I am proud of my military dad because he fights for freedom and not for war. He is like a thick plate of armor protecting us. He is like a very bright night. My dad goes on long deployments. I miss him. When he went away he helped Iraq and other countries. I am proud of my dad because he seems like the bravest person ever to live. - Sean Callahan, age 7
A tribute to the durability and ingenuity of the military spouse/mom:
She cooks food every day. She helped me when I fell off my bike. Mom picked me up and carried me home. She wiped my sores and the blood and she put me in the tub. I felt happy. My mom knows how to hotwire a car. We were traveling to Alabama then we crashed and a wire fell out of place. She got out my dad's tools and she hotwired it and made it to Alabama. I felt good. I love my mom and have a good time with her! Her name is Tetra. - Butler Nicklus, age 7
The Next Greatest Generation:
Being in the military may be hard, but that all pays off when you know you are helping your country. She's kind, but doesn't give in, which builds a sturdy family. It's not the medals or even the uniform, it's how much you care and sacrifice. I know there are more parents out there who are unknown heroes; I hope to be one too. - Jessie Reeves, age 10
So, if you have a collection of "war books", I would recommend adding this to your collection. There is nothing more poignant, funny, or heartening that can fill you with pride and respect of both those who serve in the military and their families than this little gem. In fact, I think I'm going to put it on my desk at work so I can read it once in awhile for some inspiration as well as the occasional zing to remind me how important my job is comparatively speaking:
One important reason my dad is my hero is because he cooks. He is always very busy with meetings, blabbing and making speeches and getting to know the people in the office...
Anyway, grab up this book and make it part of your collection so you can have the best rounded view of war, sacrifice, service, duty, honor and patriotism. "My Hero: Military Kids Write About Their Moms and Dads" from St. Martin's Press.
Reporting As Ordered, Sir! �
It sounds like being a mother with a son/daughter deployed would be the hardest emotionally. Is there anyone we should respect more than Mom? I say no.
by
LT Nixon on April 17, 2008 1:30 AM
Heh. Well, I did *open* the package that arrived yesterday. I admit I haven't read it yet!
by
John of Argghhh! on April 17, 2008 6:49 AM
Ohhhhh I WANT THIS BOOK!
I hadn't heard about it until your post, Kat.
One of my proudest moments as a Mom was when I overheard Kevin telling a friend "My Mom is a taker care-of-er. When people need help, my Mom's there to take care of them." He was referring to my Red Cross duties, but I've never been more proud as a Mom than when my child recognized me for things I do for other people.
These kids are the same way- they recognize that their parents are more than just Mom or Dad: they're "taker care-of-ers".
HOOAH
by AFSister on April 17, 2008 1:01 PM
I just got it the other day from St Martin's press requesting a review. It has a ton of these little stories in it that really, I could have posted many of them, but didn't want to give the book away on the internet.
It's a very nice book to add to a collection. I'd say it would be nice to have in the local library as well.
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kat-missouri on April 17, 2008 1:18 PM
� Dismissed, Soldier!
April 8, 2008
John Adams: A Pre-emptive Review
[Kat]
I'm in the middle of reading David McCollough's, John Adams
So far, it's a great book. I'm about half way through and can say it is a great way to have an inside look at the process to declare independence, get support from all the colonies, run a war, develop commercial, political and military alliances with other countries, run an interim government while trying to maintain your health and sanity. McCollough relies heavily on personal letters, journals and other documentation from the time to tell the story. He even relies on personal correspondence to touch on economic (the cost of items) and health related issues (such as the introduction of small pox inoculations)
It's interesting to me, though I don't know if all the details would be as interesting to everyone.
What comes across about Adams is that he is, in a word, driven. About everything that he takes interest in whether it is the law, love, languages or independence. At the same time, he displays moments of utter lack of confidence in himself and his efforts.
It's clear why Adams is recognized as an eminent figure among the "founding fathers".
[As an aside, I think that anyone reading this book and watching the growing pains in Iraq or Afghanistan, particularly the political problems and various compromises that sometimes end up good and not so good, would have a much better appreciation for how long it is taking.]
Reporting As Ordered, Sir! �
i've been meaning to pick that one up off the stack of "must reads" i have accumulated.
thanks for giving me the impetus.
by MajMike on April 8, 2008 7:40 AM
I'm with you MajMike, This book is in my "To*read" pile of books. Though I did go through its sister work: "1776".
Back in '05, SangerM was gracious enough to lend me the use of a couple inches of his Blog: The Grand Retort; so as to give my TWO CENTS WORTH on it.
by Boquisucio on April 8, 2008 8:41 AM
Adams is an interesting diarist who makes a lot of notes about the people around him, how they act, what they say. It gives a really interesting view of the other "founding fathers" and some not so flattering.
What I found really interesting were the discussions leading up to the declaration of independence and how touch and go that was. though, McCollough doesn't fudge any conversations. If Adams or someone else involved did not elude to a conversation, he doesn't report it.
Oh...and he is in love with his wife.
by kat-missouri on April 8, 2008 11:13 AM
I'm only about 1/5 of the way through it (I keep getting distracted by thongs, I mean things) but I agree with Kat - it is an impressive read and an incredible insight into what it took to get this country started and wrestled free from England. And yes, it provides an incredible insight into the processes behind rebuilding Iraq and Afghanistan and why it cannot happen in a day.
I cannot wait to see the miniseries once Netflix has it available.
And yes, he loves his wife.
by
HomefrontSix on April 8, 2008 8:06 PM
� Dismissed, Soldier!
March 26, 2008
House to House: Are You Man Enough...
[Kat]
...to love another so profoundly you would kill or be killed for them?
I'm on a roll with books this week. I just finished "Band of Sisters" and moved on to David Bellavia's "House to House". Vets for Freedom will be in town (Kansas City Missouri) at 7pm this evening at the Liberty Memorial, WWI Museum to speak and sign books. I plan on being there if nothing else than to meet the author of this book.
If you never read another book about the military or war, read this one.
Most of those who have reviewed this book tend to focus on the intensity of battle or the specific battle scenes. The heroics of the men are played out against the back drop of these battles. The nearly epic proportion that rivals the tale of the Spartans 300 against Xerxes millions can take your breath away. A movie director or producer would be hard pressed to capture the reality of this book or do their service justice. It would be nice, though, if someone would try instead of making movies about disenchanted and angry men, make a movie about these men.
What I took away from this book wasn't heroism brought on by the sheer insane necessity of battle. It would be a shame if a movie ever came out and portrayed it that way. Instead, these men did the unthinkable for the love of their brothers. These words can't describe that, the book came as close as humanly possible. It rivals for me, if not surpasses, Band of Brothers.
Bellavia wrote, "As infantrymen, our entire existence is a series of tests: Are you man enough? Are you tough enough?...Can you pull the trigger? Can you kill? Can you survive?" That prompted my question that seems to be the real point of Bellavia's book: Are you man enough love another so profoundly that you would kill or be killed for them?
In fact, Bellavia's single handed combat that culminated in his killing an insurgent with a knife starts out about Bellavia proving something to himself about not being a coward or a failure. That has been driving Bellavia since before he joined the army. It drove him to be a leader of men. It drove him to enter the house the second time after he had successfully and heroically exposed himself, fired on protected and well armed insurgents, extracting his troops and then himself.
He felt like he had failed himself and his troops by not finishing the job when he had a chance. He needed to set an example to his men so that they would not be demoralized or let overwhelming fear of what might be in the next house cause them to hesitate and be killed. He did not want to leave those insurgents in the house to possibly kill his men later or any that might come after them. Nor did he want to risk their lives in having them enter the house again because he had not finished the job when he had a chance.
But, above all that need to prove himself, was love. He did not want to fail the people that he loved, that had bled with him, struggled with him, lived with him and, in some cases, died for him. It's that fear of failure and the deep abiding love of those men that puts him in hand to hand combat with a man who was determined to kill him.
At the end of this book, you will understand why Bellavia is now on tour with the Vets for Freedom. He left the army and he left those men because he needed to come home to be with his family, but he, in truth, cannot leave those men, that love, the need to keep them safe or the need to honor them in the best way that he knows how: to make people remember them and to make their lives, their deaths, their sacrifices, worth something more than a "grim statistic".
Many people believe that war is about hate. In truth, they will never understand, when it comes down to the soldiers on the battle field, war is about love.
Reporting As Ordered, Sir! �
In truth, they will never understand, when it comes down to the soldiers on the battle field, war is about love.
Nice turn o' the phrase, kat.
At the strategic level, it might be about Mom, Apple Pie, Baseball and the Flag, but at the tactical level, it's always been about the guys occupying the same fifty-meter danger zone.
Or the same ten-rotor-disk block of airspace...
by
BillT on March 26, 2008 1:22 AM
I know why you went there.
Love always,
Kat
by
kat-missouri on March 26, 2008 1:25 AM
Ummmmm -- to get out of raking leaves.
by
BillT on March 26, 2008 1:42 AM
somehow, I think the leaves will be there next year. Just my super duper, public education kicking in. We learned all about the four seasons: basketball, baseball, NASCAR and football. ;)
by
kat-missouri on March 26, 2008 1:46 AM
Around here, the four seasons are salt, pepper, A-1 and Tabasco...
by
BillT on March 26, 2008 2:03 AM
Huh. I thought the Iraqi four seasons were: hot, wow its hot, holy carp its hot and carp! the mud is sucking me under!
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kat-missouri on March 26, 2008 2:17 AM
"Hot" coincides with "Carp! The mud is sucking me under!" (one-sixth of the year) and "Wow, it's hot" segues into "Holy carp, it's hot!" after about a week (the other five-sixths).
Sorta like Fort Drum, which also has only two seasons: winter and the Fourth of July.
Hey, Trias -- what's five-sixths in Celsius?
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BillT on March 26, 2008 2:49 AM
Are you man enough to love? I guess that does make sense in a way.
mm apple pie. I'm baking a pie atm a meat one it's been a long time. I know I'm insane because the shops sell perfectly good pies...
What is A-1?
Five-sixths in Celsius? That's 35 plus.
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Trias on March 26, 2008 3:37 AM
Trias -- A-1 is a bottled condiment commonly found in military dining facilities. I've never run a chemical analysis, but it appears to consist of equal parts Worcestershire, ketchup (as opposed to catsup), garlic, salt, citric acid and Brown Dye Number 587. It allegedly enhances the flavor of a perfectly good steak...
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BillT on March 26, 2008 4:04 AM
A-1 also has anchovies in it...
Here - relive the past.
Sometimes, I'm glad I spent my youth with US forces in Europe, sans TV!
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John of Argghhh! on March 26, 2008 6:51 AM
Kat, I've resisted reading both House to House and Lone Survivor because I didn't want the mind-pictures to go with what I already know.
This post might convince me to read them anyway...
And that exchange between you and Tuttle is one of the reasons I love this place. :)
I know, I know... far too much "love" talk in this post/comments. :P
by
FbL on March 26, 2008 7:25 AM
...far too much "love" talk in this post/comments. :P
%$#@! -- had the perfect snark for that, but I promised...
by
BillT on March 26, 2008 7:50 AM
Not that I want to encourage abuse of sweet little ol' me, but I do care about accuracy. It was a "Get Out Of Typo-Snark Free card." ;)
by
FbL on March 26, 2008 8:03 AM
It allegedly enhances the flavor of a perfectly good steak...
Allegedly is correct. If you're steak needs A-1, it ain't "perfectly good". However, A-1 is good for steak fries, I find.
Kat, I've resisted reading both House to House and Lone Survivor because I didn't want the mind-pictures to go with what I already know.
Blows you away. I've read a lot of books in my lifetime. I do mean "a lot" and this book simply blew me away. The guy was just telling his story, but it had everything you could or should want in a book: love, hate, pride, humility, some dark soldier humor, disgust, grief, instrospection as well as super shallow moments.
A man wrote it.
The ending reminds me of the end of Saving Private Ryan when Tom Hanks tells Matt Damon's character "Earn it." I think that is where Bellavia is coming from.
Seriusly, though, do not "not" read this book because it might leave you with bad images in your mind while you're dealing with our soldiers. There are parts that you would not want to know in another life, but the way the book is written, those images will be supplanted by the feelings of love and devotion portrayed by the author.
I might even have to read the book again to get a good idea about the actual combat ;)
by kat-missouri on March 26, 2008 9:13 AM
Bellavia needs to run for public office. I know there was (is?) talk of "drafting" him to run. I've not fully read "House to House" (Started it and then loaned it to my BIL to read) but you're right - it blows you away.
Bill ~ I love you, man!
by
HomefrontSix on March 26, 2008 12:22 PM
FBL,
Read BOTH...now!
They are both outstanding looks behind the curtain.
The perspectives and perceptions will leave you gasping for breath.
I've been back 23 months now, read both twice since Christmas.
The Blog of War and THE SANDBOX are both good books but since they are multi-author blog recaps most of us have already seen the originals when they came out. I bought em and read em simply cause my kids can read them later and understand Dad a bit better.
And I agree Dave needs to seriously think of running for Congress! Kick that IVAW Dem feller to the curb!
DS
by Desert Sailor on March 26, 2008 2:12 PM
1. Sometimes a steak begs for A-1 simply to remind me of the good ol' days at my grandparent's house. Steak, thick-cut potato wedges, A-1, and corn on the cob. Oh, and an ice-cold PBR.
2. Bellavia *is* running for office- Congress. It was announced today that's going for the seat Tom Reynolds is leaving. Thing is... he's running against another Iraq war veteran, which will make things in Erie County EXTREMELY interesting....
by AFSister on March 26, 2008 3:04 PM
Oh, and I second that, Desert Sailor. You simply MUST read both House to House and Lone Survivor!!!
by AFSister on March 26, 2008 3:07 PM
afs ~ SWEET!!! Thanks for the heads' up!
by
HomefrontSix on March 27, 2008 12:41 AM
� Dismissed, Soldier!
Band of Sisters: Women at War in Iraq
[Kat]
I went to the book store this weekend and picked up several books I had been wanting to read. While I was there, I saw a new release titled, "Band of Sisters". I decided to read it and post about it first since it is women's history month.
In case you didn't know, we have some of the finest men AND WOMEN serving in our military today. In fact, if you could bottle the courage, honor, integrity, strength and intelligence of our armed forces, you could get filthy rich on the open market. So many serve without recognition for their efforts and with humble pride they say they are "just doing a job."
This book is a great example of women in the military today that believe they are simply part of a greater whole, have important responsibilities to serve their country and protect their brothers and sisters in arms and only accept recognition to tell their story so other young women and men will have an example of that kind of honor and service to follow.
What you will find in this book...
Flash Traffic (extended entry) Follows �
This was a good book. It wasn't a page turner like Bellavia's "House to House" that I just finished reading (in less than two days), though I turned the pages on this book for the sheer interest in the subject. The book is not first person accounts. It's written by the author based on interviews and collected information. In fact, the book reads somewhat like Hall's "Home of the Brave". It was a straight forward accounting of women in the military, serving in various roles in the battle for Iraq and some of their experiences.
These women included fixed and rotor wing aviators, a flight commander, public affairs, MPs, medics, nurses, doctors, long haul truck drivers, aviation boatswain's mate (air craft carrier) and several other military occupations. It gave a good sense of the types of occupations that these women served in and what might be expected on deployment.
The book did an excellent job of simplifying military terms and descriptions of occupations, equipment and weapons. I would highly recommend this book to young women or young men who might be interested in the military, but have no close association with it. I would recommend this book to the general readership here because it high-lights women in the military and their contributions that most have not heard about outside of the few women who have received specific medals.
For the most part, the book avoided being preachy about women in the military. It took the tone I believe that most of the women portrayed in the book wanted the book to take: the women were not exceptions, but a few of many who were already serving alongside their male counterparts. In fact, there were a few who either declined to be interviewed to avoid portraying themselves as the exception and many who participated who refused to make their stories about being an exception. They just wanted to tell their story and maybe inspire other young women to serve.
Such as Captain Vernice Armour, Cobra pilot and first black female aviator in the Marines who flew missions on the march to Baghdad and to support in Najaf during Sadr's first uprising. She originally dismissed the idea of being in the book, but then decided that she might inspire other young black women to strive for something more, to be anything that they wanted. Her motto: "Do what average people do, have what average people have."
At one point, Cpt Armour's Cobra has a problem with the weapon's system and coordinates a laser guided missile attack using another helicopter's laser and their Cobra's missile while taking heavy fire. That is not the thinking of the uneducated and unthinking.
Many of the women had been in combat or close to combat. Army Captain Robin Brown had her Kiowa helicopter shot down while in enemy territory, during a CAS (close air support) mission and had to use "escape and evade". Spec. Rachelle Spor was severely injured when the ambulance she was driving to the site of another attack that injured marines was hit by an IED. Her friend and fellow female medic was killed in the same attack in the seat next to her. LCpl Chrissy DeCaprio, MP and gunner, was in several fire fights while escorting convoys. Then there were Lance Corporals Kispetik and Blais who were tasked to go with some "grunts" to do cordon and search, searching women and children, but ended up in a gun battle near where Zarqawi was first injured in a JDAM attack.
Besides Cpt Armour, my two favorites were Gunny Sgt Mayo and Lt Col. Montgomery. GSgt Mayo is in public affairs and was with the Marines on the march to Baghdad 2003. Back at Camp Lejuene, the Gunny was always on AFN. During one fire fight, with Marines down in fox holes, the Gunny went to check on "my marines". As she went from fox hole to fox hole, a young Marine looked up and said, "Aren't you the lady from TV? What are you doing here?" The Gunny replied, "Fighting a war. What are you doing here?"
At another point during the march up country, with an embedd from the BBC in tow, an incident occurred that had the Gunny threatening to throw the reporter out of the truck on his head. Later, the Gunny thought, "Oh, my God! I killed a reporter." You'll have to read the book for that story. In short, Gunny Mayo was a marine Gunny through and through. I think that's what hooked me. Sort of Clint Eastwood type of Gunny from Heartbreak Ridge except not quite as leathery.
Lt. Col Polly Montgomery impressed me because she seemed like the an extremely good leader with both the operations of her combat airlift wing and with her personnel. She seemed steady and capable. Everyone that the author interviewed had nothing but great praise and kind regards for their peer or superior. She appeared to be the type of leader that many wish they could become, man or woman. She was the first female commander of a combat squadron in the United States Air Force.
In the book, LTC Montgomery came across as straightforward and not particularly dwelling on being a woman and a mother as a particular hardship. She noted that, yes, she had missed her children when she deployed, but many of her junior officers, enlisted and NCOs were also married with children and deployed. She was very balanced.
Her C130 was shot at several times with SAMs and anti-aircraft guns. During one take off, twenty minutes in, they lost an engine. Deciding to return, a few minutes from landing, they lost another engine on the same side. On a C130, that's like trying to fly a bowling ball. They made it back and landed safely with some excellent flying skills from LTC Montgomery.
Again, this is a great book if you want to read about women in the military as they truly are: simply a steady and growing part of our military operations and traditions.
If you're interested in more information about this author and the book tour, she has her own blog: Band of Sisters. Main website with additional information on the book and the women featured is also "Band of Sisters"
� Secure this line!
Reporting As Ordered, Sir! �
That is not the thinking of the uneducated and unthinking.
That's a perfect example of a well-trained Cobra pilot operating within a team.
To quote one of my favorite 'toon characters, "I is quietly proud" of the Inheritors...
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BillT on March 26, 2008 1:52 AM
Some of us have known other members of that Sisterhood for years. I'm married to one of them, and there's no words to describe a Sunday afternoon on the patio spent with a daughter fresh from Somalia swapping *TINS* stories with her old man, comparing her war to mine.
Some of us are blessed.
by R Jewell on March 26, 2008 8:17 AM
Hey Kat,
Read Band of Sisters and it is now circulating among a bunch of crochety old men that tut tutted when reports started coming in about some of the women serving. It was a good read but short. My friends seem to always gravitate toward a very special A-10 pilot, who after a very intense strafing run, and having her tail section shot up real bad, landed her plane safely and flew another day. Call sign Killer Chick.
These women should have more then a month to honor them.
by Fishmugger on March 26, 2008 9:13 AM
Fishmugger - Killer Chick's aircraft.
Meet Captain Kim Campbell... Killer Chick.
I'd guess she's a Major, now.
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John of Argghhh! on March 26, 2008 9:21 AM
Yeah...I love that story about "Killer Chick".
I thought this book would be excellent for some of the folks who might be wondering what women are doing in the war zone besides patching up bleeding soldiers, sailors and marins.
I can't say it settled all the questions in my mind about the subject of infantry, particularly after I read "House to House", but it does speak volumes in real time about the subject too many folks think they know everything about.
by kat-missouri on March 26, 2008 9:25 AM
that's "marines"
by kat-missouri on March 26, 2008 9:31 AM
John...Great links. I've notified my friends. We lost track of her and wondered if she was still flying. Now if you could just supply a poster...
Kat,
A very good friend has a daughter who signed up for scholarship help to pay for law school. Of course whe was called up. So little Kate aka Lt Kate Assistant Battalion Ops Officer for a Reserve helo unit went off to Iraq. Her father a former Air Force Pilot and her mother a former Air Force nurse and I had many discussions about women at war. Everyone should have such discussions.
She's home now waiting for her bar results. Her husband however is on his second tour. A lot of breath holding around here.
by Fishmugger on March 26, 2008 9:39 AM
Fishmugger - you want a poster?
Okay.
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John of Argghhh! on March 26, 2008 9:55 AM
John,
Thanks again. And... because some day you will need a favor...and your enemies are my enemies.
Your humble servant.
by Fishmugger on March 26, 2008 10:39 AM
I've been on the lookout for a new good read, since my third attempt at "War and Peace" has me saying "Life is short, screw the Classics."
Band of Sisters looks like a good one, a veritable thorny branch with which to flog myself for being a commie in the '80s instead of serving my country.
I can't go back, so I'll proudly read about the gals who were braver than I. Thanks!
by April on March 26, 2008 10:52 AM
You can still serve, Linda. Plenny of places to volunteer time and talent!
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John of Argghhh! on March 26, 2008 1:59 PM
This is true, John--I do volunteer with Red Cross Disaster Services, and you're right--never too late to do something.
by April on March 26, 2008 2:16 PM
� Dismissed, Soldier!
January 24, 2008
Review of Matamoros #1
A little over a week ago someone sent an email to John asking for a review of a new comic. John asked me, ry, to be included on the review process. So this is my take on the new title Matamoros. So, please don’t mistake this for The Armorer’s opinions.
The most positive thing I can say about this new comic title is that has potential. That Matamoros has room to grow and tell compelling stories even if it does not exactly do that in this first offering.
I just don’t have the cash in the budget to venture on a comic I’m not 100% on, and so I wouldn’t recommend it to anyone else who is not willing to risk $3/month on an iffy title. I definitely wouldn’t recommend it for children under the age of 15 as it is way too adult. Yet, if you’ve got the time and inkling to take a risk I’d say sign up for it. I imagine that people who like 24 and The Shield will be much more open to this book than I. It, like Battle Star Galactica on the Sci-Fi channel, has the ability to become a very engrossing piece if you’re willing to give it the time to develop. I'm rather unwilling.
On a Gollum’s scale of 1-5 yessss my precioussses I give Matamoros a 3 yessss my precioussses. It has potential. It isn’t my cup of tea, but it has taken a novel stance for comics on serious issues. The hero has the capability of being a very deep and rich character one could identify with and like instead of being a clone of the early Punisher before he got his own book (a simple, uninteresting kill-bot) crossed with Wolverine from X-men. If the author’s do that, make Sobietti an engrossing protagonist, Matamoros could enjoy success like other alt niche comics have (Hellboy and Tankgirl becoming so well liked that they became fodder for movies even though 90% of the comic reading pubic had ever heard of them being some examples.) and be a very worthwhile title.
(More below the fold)
--ry
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The greatest strength of this title is also its weakness: the in your face nature of the politics. It gets in the way of telling the story, any story actually. It really felt like I was watching some crap Tarantino film where there’s a series of scenes just cobbled together with only the merest attempts at plot to hold them all together. It was very Reservoir Dogs, and that is not a good thing.
The reason big titles like X-men and Batman can handle inclusion of political themes are that there’s a very interesting story in which these ideas and themes are implanted in them. Frank Miller’s The Dark Knight Returns is a great example of this. The social commentary is hard to miss and is very blatant at times (the TV debate show panels), but said commentary never got in the way of telling a tale of daring do. Matamoros seemingly ignored this maxim (tell a fun and interesting story) to run at breakneck speed to the protagonist shooting some home grown terrorists while taking political stances along the way. Another example is the comic book inspired TV show Heroes or the anime series Neon Genesis: Evangelion where political themes and points of philosophy, even annoying ones like the Existentialist laden ending of Evangelion, are integral to the story but not swung like a baseball bat.
Some of the stances were done a bit sotto voce, such as the stem cell research topic, so it is not like the authors do not know how to be restrained. The books on the COL’s table, while obvious, are not screaming in your face like some of the other stances are (the phone call, the title of the book, the newspaper headline). It just seems rather mishmash on the subject of making political statements. The baseball bat to the noggin of political stances does not make for fun reading. It becomes a chore, like trying to read the annoying sophistry of Frank Herbert in the later Dune novels as opposed to the more interesting and challenging reads that are Phillip K. Dick’s novels.
To be fair, it could be that this was done because it is a first issue and because it is an independent release. Being an independent release puts a real limit on much story you can tell because more story means more pages, and more pages costs more money to print. Being a first release you want to make a big splash to grab attention so people will come back to see what you do next month.
But that does not excuse bad story pacing and a thin major story arc.
The material here would best have been broken up into two, maybe three, issues. The injury/recovery and re-integration into civilian life for our protagonist, SGT Sobietti, elements could easily have taken up a single issue with the cliff-hanger of overhearing possible terrorists at a diner ending. The surveillance of, tracking of, and dispatching of terrorist elements could have been extended to fill most of a second issue with another foreshadow, not cliff-hanger, coming at the end of issue two (does Sobietti have to worry about NYPD looking for him or that the terrs now know they’re being hunted so they go looking for him?). Again, this could be done for the reasons of money or for getting initial interest. The title has potential to tell compelling stories about Sobietti and his run-ins with terrorists in NY, but issue one does not tell a compelling story. It tells a short snuff fantasy that someone like Deadpool or the Punisher would be more comfortable with than Captain America---whom the authors imply multiple times is their inspiration for SGT Sobietti. Well, at least the old incarnation of Captain America that is. The new pistol packing Cap might be more in tune with Sobietti, but not having time for that title either I cannot say for sure.
Overall, I didn’t enjoy Matamoros. Mostly that’s because I’m not amenable to many of the political stances the book takes. For example, I don’t think land mines or the infamous claymore mine are a coward’s weapon. I think they’re things that are legal, or should be, that were often abused; and the Princess Di initiative to ban them was rather a misguided if not down right stupid thing. Having said that, I think the use of IED in Iraq, whether they fall in the EFP or bailing wire and spit categories, are an evil thing based on how they’ve been used---to indiscriminately kill in large numbers. It is things like that which make this a title I won’t pick up again. Our POV is just so different, and the things the authors feel compelled to say are not things I particularly want to take the time to hear. I’ve dealt with said questions and issues in other arenas, and have no desire to go thru it again. For those that haven’t done the mental pushups on these issues this is a perfect title to cut your teeth on.
As I opened with though, this book has room to grow. Matamoros has some interesting ideas and a take on the issues different than standard comic fare. If you’re open to some of the ideas, even if open to them only from opposition, this is a book to watch and see if it expands from the snuff fantasy into the much larger and fuller title it could be. It is not for Gollum, but it has the potential to become a good book if the issues of pacing and story telling instead of simply stringing scenes together are dealt with.
-ry
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Interesting title, which has lost its original meaning over the centuries. It is one which harkens waaaay back to the struggle of liberation. The liberation of Christian Spain against the Muslim Al-Andaluz. It is a title which back then, conveyed both a truly despective disdain against their enemies, and great honor to those conferred-to.
In a pre-politically correct era, war used to give us many of such titles. For example, during our Civil War many ferocious units of the South were nicknamed “Yankee Killers”. Yankees were despised and hated, and they cherished the opportunity to kill them. In a similar warrior spirit, Christian Spanish Knights hated the Muslims, and enjoyed slaughtering them. Therefore the term: “Mata Moros” Moor Killer. To get a good feel for this mediaeval mindset, just read El Cid Campeadorin its original 11th Century Castilian like I did, you would understand.
But I digress. The term Moro, not only conveys a plain vanilla description of Muslims, but also brings with it the weight of hateful racism. A meaning watered-down over the centuries. You see, the Al-Andaluz Muslim Lords of North Africa (lighter skinned), employed the use of coal-black-skinned Mauritanians as foot soldiers in their armies. Thus the true, and forgotten meaning of Moors: Black.
For all the rhetoric, the old stock Al-Andaluz of North African ancestry, invaded Spain during a time of Muslim enlightenment. A time when Damascus and Bagdad were the intellectual capital centers of the world. And thus brought with them and transplanted a culture thirsty for knowledge and tolerance when they settled in Spain.
Their Mauritanians allies, on the other hand, were recently converted into Islam. And thus were infected with the firebrand fanaticism of the newly proselytes. By the thousands, they answered the call for jihad – yes jihad – to defend the Muslim lands of Al-Andaluz. They were instantly despised by the Christians. Not only were they Muslim but also of another skin color altogether.
What I am trying to say in this roundabout way, is that in its original meaning “Mata Moro”, is one or the most Un Politically Correct terms that I can think-of. A term that I will used not to convey my feelings on the matter, but to let the gentle readers understand its true hateful meaning.
To the Mediaeval Spaniard “Mata Moro” not only meant “Muslim Killer” but “Nigger Killer” as well.
And because words have meanings, and meanings have words, what is the message that the author want convey to the public with this title vis-à-vis this so called Global War on Terror?
by Boquisucio on January 24, 2008 10:10 AM
I don't think the authors went *that* far back researching the matamoros, Boq. By the fifteenth century, Knights of Sant Iago received title and insignia simultaneously, so title and insignia became synonymous. The original derivation faded (as have the original derivations of hundreds of words in most languages) and, for better or worse, Matamoros has become just another term for Crusader.
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BillT on January 24, 2008 12:38 PM
I have to admit, that was an interesting little lessen in history that I wasn't aware of even though I had looked up the term.
Thanks, Boq.
However, I have to agree with Bill and some others, that the problem as you state it will not equate to most readers, black or white as they will be simply more familiar with the idea of "crusader".
I think Ry's review is interesting if you can take some criticism, though possibly over the top a little in expecting it to have the sophistication of a long existing comic book. Which he does give as a point a few times and ends with the "can develop".
Then again, I haven't read it, just seen the adverts so I don't want to be too harsh on Ry either.
I do think that Cox purposefully made everything clear and in your face because that is exactly the kind of cartoonist he's been this entire time. though some of their cartoons were subtle in their sarcasm and irony, most of them were simply black and white. Treason v. Patriotism.
Possibly the entire point was to stop being mealy mouthed subtle about terrorism and terrorists or its Islamist roots. and we, maybe are the problem. I still recall those old Captain America comics that weren't too adverse to calling a Nazi a Nazi. Thus, I imagine that those who will want to read this comic will not be simply those who have not done the "mental pushups" on the subject, but who are simply tired of all the "subtlety" and wish someone would just "talk straight".
I'll leave the question of whether it jumps around too much to when I read it. I think I was hoping to hear that this was a comic about our soldiers in the field. That maybe my biggest disappointment in reading Ry's review.
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kat-missouri on January 24, 2008 1:06 PM
***Silently creeps into Cricket's Kitchen... Cracks open the lid on the crock-pot, and looks at the stew that Gollum has kindly made for us all. Takes in a deep whiff and proclaims...****
"Ah yes - Nice bouquet of Social Consternation, with a subtle note of Dissension; but may need a pinch more of Disquiet".
***Puts the lid back on the stew, and walks back to his Scriptorium at 3-North****
Seriously though, my first impression of the title was: At last, someone is virile enough to call a Spade, A Spade. Seven full years into this, we still can't bring ourselves to state the obvious. We, the Western World is at war with the Muslim World. At the tip of the spear are countless of our modern day Mata Moros. Killers of Religious Fanatics pure and simple.
by Boquisucio on January 24, 2008 2:32 PM
All: I'm one of the co-writers of the book.
ry: although I wish you had enjoyed the book more, I appreciate your candor and your review. If we had a publisher then we could've done a bit more to "stretch" out some of the storylines, but honestly, self-publishing isn't easy so we had to assume this would be a short miniseries or even a one-shot. Regarding the landmine comment, that page was set up to contrast the "enlightened" view of mines by the European elites versus their use as a primary weapon by Islamists. If transnational progressives are appalled by landmines, they sure are having a hard time criticizing their use by Islamists.
Boquisucio: yes, we were aware of the etymology of the word “moros” and even of its origins from Greco-Roman times. I can assure you that the phrase “N-word killer” was the furthest thing from our minds and everything I’ve read on the topic (Bernard Lewis, Bostom, etc.) indicated the name was used in the context of classifying Moslem invaders during the civilizational war for the Iberian peninsula. The sole use of the word in the comic was in the context of resisting a jihadist military attack. I can discuss this further, including how the word applies to the protagonist and to the title, by email if you need more information.
BillT : I think it is unfortunate that people just equate the term with the Crusades. The “crusades” is now equivalent in postmodern lingo to a religiously motivated imperialist war, which nobody wants, whereas the reconquista was about punching an aggressive bully in the face. People do not want to forcibly convert Moslem countries from their religion, but neither do they want Islamists to destroy Western civilization and replace it with a sharia state. FYI - I think the west has done enough self-flagellation about the Crusades. I have yet to hear an apology for 1400 years of jihadist imperialism.
kat-missouri: unfortunately, the protagonist *is* on the battlefield for the entire book. Islamists refer to the entire west as the House of Strife (dar al harb) and to them any location is a legitimate military target. One of the men I thought of while co-writing the book was Rick Rescorla, the head of security at Morgan Stanley who died on 9/11. He was in the Army during the Ia Drang campaign (Hal Moore, the officer in charge of one of the 1st Cavalry battalions in the fight, called Rescorla the best platoon leader he ever saw) and his actions to save the 2000+ employees of Morgan Stanley were just as heroic as what he’d done 35 years earlier. To the NVA the Ia Drang was a legitimate battlefield; to Atta and his ilk the WTC was also a battlefield, and Rescorla did his best to combat both.
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Darius_LaMonica on January 24, 2008 3:47 PM
ooooh. now you've done it Darius. Told people they don't know Rick Rescorla around here. Major faux pau(so I can't spell. so shoot me, John). Particularly Kat-mizzou. :) (tongue in cheek, tongue in cheek).
Kat, if you notice I didn't say anything about Cox. The artwork had nothing to do with it. Good comics rely on story and not the art. Look at the graphic novel Maus. First time effort. Amazing story. Art work is waaay simplistic, but you read it because of the story it tells(and universities assign it in certain comp-lit classes. Note: I never took a comp-lit course, I exploited every hole I could find to avoid it.) There have been times favorite titles have been unreadable but very nice to look at(the Rob Leifield era comes to mind) It can be done, and good books do do that. I came to it as a long term comics reader, having seen very good titles come from first time writers on the first issue release(and a ton of pure trash along the way). The Next Men comes to mind as a very well done book from start to finish from a first time author with a totally new set of heroes. It can be done, and I'm not going to go easy on someone simply because we are on the same side of the debate.
Also, I gave it a three out of five. Gaussian distribution(and why would I use anything other than a Gaussian?) means average would be 2.5. I gave it a three. It was good, it was new in outlook, and I gave it credit for being non-mealy mouthed. But that's a novelty, and being 'the only straight talking book around' fades quickly.. A truly good book needs more than novelty to last. What was there showed me that Darius and Sleet had spent lots of thought on who SGT Sobietti is, and what his purpose is. It just didn't come across so well, much of their thought didn't make it onto the page. Later comms with Darius seems that I was right. The iffy-ness of production really hurt the quality of the book. Limited budget, not working for a major house(and almost all the minors are owned by the majors(you get two choices, DC and Marvel)), and it comes back to hurt the story. Seen it a zillion times. It is very unfortunate. I wasn't simply taking it easy on Darius by saying I thought the book had potential, or saying it because we both agree on GWOT. Nope, this one showed room for improvement, honestly(unlike the book some chucklehead tried to push having Sean Hannity leading a resistance movement against a UN that had taken over the US and lead by Osama bin Laden. That had nowhere to go and was flat out stupid.). It could, given some thought about how to tell good stories on limited budget(proll'y why it was in b/w instead of color too), last long enough to be picked up by one of the few truly independent houses around. I wasn't bs'ing on that.
And nobody is picking on me for verbosity? Dang, I disappear for a while and you all turn into slackers.
Darius,
"that page was set up to contrast the "enlightened" view of mines by the European elites versus their use as a primary weapon by Islamists. If transnational progressives are appalled by landmines, they sure are having a hard time criticizing their use by Islamists"
That's exactly what I mean by 'baseball bat to the head'. It was so over the top that criticism of Euro-weenies got lost on me. THe first thing that popped up into my head at the word 'cowards' was "Gee I've heard that before. Don't the twits at DU and DKos say our troops are cowards for using CAS?" The next thought was, 'Hey, we use landmines and claymores, one of the few countries that still do. I don't think that's a good way of making the point that IED are evil weapons.' You wound up for a wicked slapshot at Euro-weenies and fanned on your shot. That hurts your book.
Honestly, dude, your book has potential. It might go over better if you did it as a graphic novel and then tried to parley that into a monthly. Just a thought. And, homes, yeah, I know how hard it is indy publishing. I should tell you about my buddy Jason and how many independent projects he's started and had fall out from under him. It isn't fair that good ideas get relegated to the sidelines, if they get to play at all, but that's the business. That's why I never went in with Jay on his projects---I knew I was going to lose money no matter how good the ideas were. Tough road. I wish you the best.
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ry on January 25, 2008 5:56 AM
What are you doing in the Kitchen, Boq? It's bad enough that Cricket will kill me for messing up her Kitchen, but now I've got you messing with me stew? I'm doomed. Rats.
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ry on January 25, 2008 6:02 AM
People do not want to forcibly convert Moslem countries from their religion...
Which causes them to forget that the original intent of the first crusades were *also* conducted to "punch a bully in the face."
...but neither do they want Islamists to destroy Western civilization and replace it with a sharia state.
And there are those who *do* -- and who are actively campaigning to install shari'a. Right. Here.
Just call me a Crusader -- in the *original* context of the term. Feel free to add Myrmidon, too...
*grinnnnn*
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BillT on January 25, 2008 9:55 AM
� Dismissed, Soldier!
December 4, 2007
Fifteen Days.
"...it said that all Afghans should rise up and jihad against the invaders, especially the United States, Britain, and Canada. It carried on with ranting and crap."
"But in a weird way, I felt proud to be a Canadian."
"Ever read those history textbooks on D-Day? And it's all American and British troops? and I'm Canadian, dammit, and we were there, and so I guess it was finally nice to be recognized by the enemy... We're big enough to be recognized by guys who hate us, powerful enough to be recognized by those who hate Western Society."
That's Captain Jon Hamilton, of Princess Patricia's Canadian Light Infantry.
And stuff like that is why you want to read this book - especially if you're Canadian, but heck, I'm as proud of the Princess Pat's as any Canadian is. These warriors are brothers-in-arms.
If you've an interest in this century's Forgotten War, soldiers, soldiering, and Canadian soldiers in particular (though that last really isn't needful) you want to read Christie Blatchford's Fifteen Days.
Ms. Blatchford is a Canadian journalist who made three trips to Afghanistan over a 10 month period in 2006.
She chose 15 days (not all days she was present, she did hundreds of hours of interviews) to mark the experience of the Canadian Forces in Afstan. Some of the names in the book you'll remember... we've remembered them here at the Castle.
As a book reviewer, part of what I'm supposed to do is show you how smart I am with trenchant analysis and other stuff. There's no need. Once I started, I couldn't put it down. I'll let Ms. Blatchford's prose - made possible by Canada's soldiers, make no mistake, and Ms.Blatchford knows that well, and keeps herself as a small ghost in the background - I'll let her prose and Canada's soldiery tell the tale well enough.
Any book about anglospheric soldiery that starts with a little Kipling (Tommy) already has a plus mark with me...
Yes, makin' mock o' uniforms that guard you while you sleep
Is cheaper than them uniforms, an' they're starvation cheap.
(I'll say this - based on prices in Clothing Sales - the "starvation cheap" line now applies to the soldier who has to buy those uniforms...)
Let's move to the excerpts... I did do some editing of the profanity, just to keep net-nanny software from blacklisting the Castle.
"Jon Hamilton, the then twenty-nine-year-old Captain of the reconnaissance or recce platoon, first fired his weapon on February 4 in his initial week on the ground in Afghanistan during the operational hand-over from American troops. At that time, the event was so startling he was quizzed about it.
"I remember actually sitting down with the colonel and the operations officer and they were going like, 'Okay, what the hell's going on here, Jon?' I was like, 'I fired my weapon in support of coalition troops. I don't understand what the problem is here.'"
Hamilton believes he was the first Canadian soldier on the tour to fire a shot, and suspects that as soon as word of it got back home, which in our age means almost instantaneously, military bureaucrats in Ottawa had their knickers in a knot. "Now," he says, "that seems so stupid... so insignificant compared to what lay ahead."
By the end of July, Hamilton, with two dozen men, and the rest of the battalion were battle-hardened and so inured to the roar of combat that they were lighting up smokes and cracking jokes with rounds raining down on them.
"This is the kind of stuff you get used to," Hamilton says. "And it's not complacency or laziness. It's just the sh-t that happens in battle, it's the human mind protecting itself from going insane or something. It's the way soldier's are."
For recce, July 4 was the turning point."
Want the rest of that story (and you do)... read the book.
Okay, I'll give you a little tease...
"...The Army has a formal procedure for the sighting of enemy, just as it has formal procedure, or form, for every eventuality and every thing. That's both why it works and why it can make smart men crazy. This particular procedure is called a fire control order, and it's supposed to be done the same way every thime -- something like, "Contact, reference hill 600 metres left."
But what Schnurr barked to his light machine gunner Corporal Jimmy Funk was, "Jim they're on the right! F-ck 'em up!"
For many of us, *that* will sound familiar.
And that is only on page 7. The rest of the book is just as good, nay, better. There's incredible bravery, there's battle camaraderie, sorrow, joy, and fierce exultation. There are obstructionist military bureaucrats (not all Canadian), bad food, a hostile environment, and flashes of the basic humanity that distinguishes many western soldiers from many other flavors of soldier.
I got the book for free to review from Doubleday Canada. I'm going to give it to the Combined Arms Research Library at Fort Leavenworth. I was originally going to give it to the Canadian Liaison Officer to pass among the Canadians studying here - but I just found out that the US arm of the publishing house is sending me two autographed copies of the book. I'll give *those* to the Canadians here in attendance. Much as I like having autographed copies on my bookshelf, well, some people are more deserving than I for these books.
Based on the rules I got from Random House, I need to link to the amazon.ca page as well as the amazon.com page - so here you go... If you're a Canadian reader and want to buy Fifteen Days, you can get it via Amazon's Canadian website by clicking here..
If you're a US reader, you can get Fifteen Days from Amazon by clicking here.
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Nice review, John. For me, other than Christie's writing - I'd give my left nut to be able to put words together the way she does - there were two really notable things I took away from the read.
First, it's still more than a bit weird, all these years later, seeing names I know as cocky kids at the Royal Military College now commanding large numbers of men on the battlefield, and being recognized for their outstanding leadership (you watch: Nick Grimshaw is one of those guys who could run the CF one day). I know that's the normal progression of things, but it still feels really odd.
Second, that last chapter is just...I have no words. This line summed it up for me:
"So we did what you do in Newfoundland. We pretended everything was okay, had some laughs, drank lots of booze, then we all cried together. Then we laughed some more at what a bunch of pansies we were." - Willy Macdonald, on Remembrance Day in Burgeo, Vaughan Ingram's hometown
For those who haven't read it yet, Blatchford follows a number of small groups of soldiers who travel back to the hometowns of their fallen comrades for the first Remembrance Day since the end of their roto. It's incredibly moving.
Oh, and good on you for giving your copy away. I thought of doing the same, but I want one on my shelves for evermore. I'll just have to buy more as gifts.
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Damian on December 4, 2007 9:29 AM
There's a few of us in the US who still remember Dieppe, and Canada's contribution to WW2...
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Casey Tompkins on December 4, 2007 9:41 AM
Thanks for the Boyda analysis. Saves me having to think about it too much as your erudite commentary pretty much covers my issues.
by JimC on December 4, 2007 4:20 PM
� Dismissed, Soldier!
September 7, 2006
Blood Brothers
Blood Brothers. The title of a new book (out this October) by Time Magazine's Michael Weisskopf, one of the co-writers of the Time Person of the Year article that featured US troops.
Also known as "The reporter who ate the grenade."
I actually finished the book last week, but have taken a week to digest it. Why? Because the book roused great emotions in me.
Mike Weisskopf lost his hand the night a grenade bounced into the HMMWV he was riding in. He picked it up, and tossed it out of the vehicle - and it blew up pretty much in his hand, blowing it off - but, incidentally, saving the lives of the soldiers in the vehicle.
I say incidentally on purpose - because an important sub-theme of the book is Weisskopf coming to grips with that act. An act characterized as heroism by those he saved and others around him - but the title of hero is not one he's comfortable with. If you wish to see how, if at all, he resolves that - well, you'll have to read the book, won't you?
With that as an opener, you then follow the stories of three other amputees -Pete Damon, Luis Rodriguez, and Bobby Isaacs - from their injuries through their travails as healthy young men maimed in the prime of their lives.
Since Weisskopf was wounded early in the Iraq campaign, you also get a glimpse at the transformation for the staff of Walter Reed Army Medical Center, as they shift from treating geriatric patients at the end of their lives to treating young, fit men, suddenly discomfited in their prime. And the differences are wrenching, and the toll on staff and family is laid bare. As is the courage of these people, and too, the occasional failure of courage, and the impacts. In this, Weisskopf is unsparing.
You'll get to meet Stumpy, Ralph, and Pretty Boy - so doing, get some insight to the process of healing, acceptance, coping and adaptation - not just for the amputees, but those around them, as well.
I had to put the book down, time and time again, as I felt rushes of guilt. Why? Weisskopf was wounded early in the war, and was finished with the bulk of his rehab process before we got Project Valour-IT started. No one's fault - it was established as a result of milblogger CPT Z's wounding, when the need suddenly burst into the open, via Carin's blogging for Chuck, which turned Fuzzybear Lioness into a dynamo of organization.
But as I read, and the nature of their challenges sunk in, I just couldn't help but think, man, we started late! And it bothered me, a lot.
Oddly enough, there is a passage from the book - appropriately coming at the end, where an epiphany for Mike Weisskopf became an epiphany for me. It comes about as the result of a chat with the psychiatrist, Hal Wain. I'll let Mike tell you:
Lying awake that night, I was reminded of one of Wain's comments. I had been expressing my frustration about the fact that such a major ordeal had seemed to have so little effect on me - I was still the same impatient, competitive, and sefl-critical person I'd always been. If I had acted so nobly, why didn't I feel more content? Wain's response at the time struck me as somewhat facile: rather than bring about change, he said, the good deed had left me angry at myself. "You're thinking you could have done the same thing and didn't have to lose the hand. You love a perfect win, and didn't get that perfect victory that you wanted and maybe deserved."
As I tossed and turned in the early hours of Independence Day, the simple truth of the psychologists words hit me. It was true: I was mad at myself for failing to pull off a clean sweep. And it was that anger that was preventing me form savoring the achievement of a lifetime: saving my own skin and that of three others. My failure to get rid of the grenade before it exploded was only the first in a long list of wrongs I would have to pardon before I could finally put the ordeal behind me.
Weisskopf goes on to explain that in terms of what he terms "The Prize" - which is the rest of his life, and those of Damon, Rodriguez, and Isaacs.
I too took a lesson from it, as Mike had expressed something I too did, in my completely-trivial-in-comparison way - my emotions from reading the book were similar in scope - I was angry with myself because we started so late with Project Valour-IT.
Which means I too wasn't letting myself take solace in the fact that we did get it started, and we can serve (and have served) those who were wounded and moved on before we got the program up and running.
And many, many of you are a part of that, too.
And you should read this book - so you to can get a real sense of having been part of something capital-G good.
I've got other things to say about the book, but I'll do those in later posts.
And if you haven't given to Project Valour-IT lately - it's never too late to top off, or just get started.
I got an advanced reader's copy of the book, it's scheduled for publication in October. This blog doesn't have the reach of Matt, or Greyhawk, but it does give me a chance to do things like PVIT, get review copies of books, and have email chats with people like Mike Weisskopf. All for about $40 a month.
Cheap at twice the price.
What follows is a listing of people you should know - and will, if you read the book. In no particular order or grouping - this is as much for the named individuals, if they ever google themselves, or for kids researching a book report... well, their names are up here, and tied to the book. What the heck, it's the least I can do - if you're going to be in Google, this is a good thing to be tied to, methinks.
Michael Weisskopf, Jenn Damon, Pete Damon, Rebekah Edminster, Luis Rodriguez, Lilliam Rodriguez, Bobby Isaacs, Derick Hurt, Victor Vorobyev, Kathleen Yancosek, Skyler Weisskopf, Olivia Weisskopf, Andy McCaffrey, Justin LaFerrier, Isatta Jackson, John Gonsalves, Joe Miller, John Miguelez, Mike Curtin, Chuck O'Brien, Nicholas Cutcher, Krystal, Pat Isaacs, Jack Cox, Renee Cox, Jordan Caldwell, Dorian Perez, Maria Bueche, Paul Bueche, PJ Bueche, Marianne Pearl, Ibrahim Kabbah, Mary Miles, Jim Beverly, Orion Jenks, Ron Buxton, Jim Nachtwey, Billie Grimes, Ramesh Pratnesar, Brian Bennett, Sam al-Hillali, Howard Chu-Eoan, Nina McCoy, Leslie Flesch, Allura Damon, Danny Damon, Melanie Damon, Andy Friedman, Tammy LaFrancois, Marci Stillerman, Judith Katz, John Zenie, Jim Mayer, Hal Koster, James Nicholas, Tami Barr, James Fair, Heath Callahan, Aunt Julia, Jerry the Rockclimber, David Maraniss, Thomas Hinger, Marje Hoban, Hal Wain, Katrina Fair, Maurice Craft, Andrea Craft,
Reporting As Ordered, Sir! �
I'll be sure to add it to my must-read list, John. I can see this book had an impact on you in many ways- a true testiment of the author's writing ability.
by AFSister on September 7, 2006 5:54 AM
I'm looking forward to the book, too. But with trepidation, as I suspect I will shed many tears, spurred by similar emotions to what John describes.
*sad sigh*
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FbL on September 7, 2006 11:02 AM
I need to get my To-Do list of books updated - this is another that I want to read. Thanks for the insight, John.
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Barb on September 7, 2006 12:31 PM
John,
Speaking of regrets of this kind, I regret that Project Valour-IT didn't spring to my mind when I was writing my review of Blood Brothers. It would have been an obvious correlation, and PVIT in large measure refutes my suggestion that the story Weisskopf tells would have been "largely untold."
I too was struck by Weisskopf's internal struggle, his uneasy ambivalence with his actions and their implications, his motivations, and meaning.
I expected to read a story that caused me grief, sadness, pride and appreciation of men who have made a greater sacrifice than any I have had to make. But I connected with his book on a deeper and more personal level than I expected, because he describes something I experience, and I see in my fellow soldiers.
Thanks, John, for making the connection here, and I look forward to your further thoughts on the book.
by
dadmanly on September 7, 2006 12:46 PM
Hoss, you're waayyyyyy too hard on yourself. Really.
Cut yourself some slack. YOu aren't God. You can't save everyone or be there for everyone every time. You've done more than your share with both your time in The Colors(how many non-coms, enlisted, and officers did you save from their own stupidity? And how many of us civilians do you do that for now? Well, there's me and.....) and the sheetload of stuff you do now. You're the most-giving-son-of-a-beach I've ever met and you're beating yourself up because you don't do more? That is high comedy.
"I will not lose" only works on the mat. Real life is a lot more complicated. So buck up, Big Guy. You done good.
by ry on September 7, 2006 2:53 PM
Do *not* interfere with the Bear when he's grumpy or immersed in self-pity and loathing.
Just.don't.
It's dangerous. Ask the Grizzly Man.
by
John of Argghhh! on September 7, 2006 3:19 PM
� Dismissed, Soldier!